January 7, 2003

So three interesting-seeming guys have responded to my ad at gayjews.net. I called them all yesterday, left messages, and then instantly lost all desire to meet any of them—or, for that matter, anybody else, ever again.

I am utterly baffled by this paradigm shift.

Perhaps my subconscious, having watched me make a total mess of my search for love, is taking over and following the lead of the eponymous Carmen in Bizet’s opera:

L’oiseau que tu croyais surprendre
Battit de l’aile et s’envola.
L’amour est loin, tu peux l’attendre;
Tu ne l’attends plus, il est là!
Tout autour de toi, vite, vite,
Il vient, s’en va, puis il revient.
Tu crois le tenir, il t’évite;
Tu crois l’éviter, il te tient.

The bird you thought to take by surprise
Beat his wings and flew away.
Love is far away, you can wait for him;
You stop waiting, and he’s there!
All around you, quickly, quickly,
He comes, he goes, he comes back.
You think you have him, he escapes you;
You think you’ve escaped him, he has you.

I can only hope my subconscious knows enough to diverge from Carmen’s path before my lover stabs me to death at a bull fight.

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One Response to So three interesting-seeming guys have

  1. D.R. says:

    The thing that comes to my mind when I think of Carmen is the tune they used in the musical version of Hamlet as performed on Gilligan’s Island.

    So, really, I just think it means that you will end up with a fat, white-haired man who calls you “little buddy.”


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